I always thought love would be a straightforward affair once I found the girl of my dreams.

Well, I found her, and it has been anything but. I have questioned so much, hurt so badly, loved so greatly and in general never been so confused in my life.

There are times when I say I love it, there are times when I say I hate it.

There are times when I tell you I would not have it any other way and there are times when I wish it was just over.

But I will figure this out. I have never been so sure of anything in my life. For having everything else in my life figured out, this one thing remains uncertain. I am drawn to it. I will burn. But God damn it all, I will figure this out and the only outcome can be happiness.