Have never been an avid bible reader, so when discussing religion my grandmother told me a story I had never heard before. It was about a woman who was told by god to run and not look back. She looked back, and turned into dust which blew away. when I asked about her soul or if she went to heaven, my grandmaw said no because she didn't obey god. I was dumbfounded that the god that had supposedly been so caring and forgiving took no mercy on this woman's soul. I haven't worshipped god after that day. I don't know if he is out there, but if he is, he doesn't sound like someone worth praising in that story. I have tried many times to restore my faith, but I can't make myself believe in something I don't. All I know is that if there isn't a god, and after death there is only nothingness, it would be a lot better than worshipping cruelty or burning in hell.