Throughout our relationship you pretended to be way more in to me than you really were. We left for winter break on the note that we'd miss each other a ton. Over break, I felt so secure with our relationship that I came out to my roommates and prepared to do the same with my parents. When we got back, I was so ecstatic to have you back, and you still pretended to be happy, too. You told me that us having sex would be really special for you and you wanted it to be special for me too. So I trusted you with my virginity, and the next time I saw you, you dumped me, saying that you "liked me as a friend", and the more I think about it, the clearer it is that you realized that it was over before we had sex, and I feel like you just decided to exploit my love/trust (and you knew I had trust issues beforehand) to get what you wanted before getting out of dodge. I hope you realize how special it is that I'm trying to reach a point of reconciliation with you, and I hope you appreciate all the effort I'm putting into it. If you do, I wish you'd give me a sign.

P.S. I'm glad our breakup has given you more time to focus on feminism. Maybe you'll learn how to respect the women in your life in the process...