I was a druggie and alcoholic at age 16 i was sexually abused during this time my dad went to jail i know hurt myself to feel better i have hunderads of cuts and scars i started hearing voices and halucinating at the age of seven ive been in the mental hospital 3 times and put on meds for depretion and scitzo affective disorder when i cry and talk to my mom she walks away and ignores me i have no one to talk to i need help i beleive in god but have decided that i'de rather live then live for ever im now 17 and still hurt my self i was told i was loved by a pathalogical lyer who i beleived and he took my viginaty i can never trust guys again help me please
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Hi Katie,
You need to reconnect with the doctors and helpers at the hospital.
Because of your abuse - tragic abuse - that you suffered during childhood your ability to choose "safe people" to trust will be unreliable. Your only safe bet for people to trust, people to talk to, are the people who helped you as a child.
Please, I beg you, reconnect with them. Not with men you meet, not with people you "fall in love" with, and not with your chaotic family. They will be able to tell you, to relate to what you're going through, to show you how it's not your fault and what you're to do.
If you have a good priest to hand I would also recomment that. But he won't be able to help you in the same way that doctors and counsellors will.
Please Katie, get back in touch with them. If you don't know how we can help you there.by #Silent at -
So much pain Katie. I too feel alone and abandon by my family. Even though, I did have the same experiences for moments I felt very depressed and so empty. I have high and lows but I seen the light sometimes when I am at my lowest. I wish you find that to. I wish you could keep fighting and going on and decide to have a beautiful life with all you have.by anonymous at
