the past few days have been real shxx..... and i miss everybody... i miss my dad, i miss my friends out of town, i really miss one of my bestfriends over seas that i havent seen in forever (which im super happy hes coming back soon :D ) .... its just that i really needed someone to help me, and ive called everyone i know... i really mean EVERYONE, even the poeple i dont ussually talk to...well... cuz they piss me off.... i got stiches yesterday on my knee and its hard to move my leg, and i have to move stuff around and not a sigle person could help me .... the ones i know r my true friends couldnt becuase they were not avaible (not their fault they couldnt help me) ... but it was very tipical for the people that rare somewhat family members by connection to my dad (the people that piss me off) said they couldnt becuase they were too tired from playing WOW all night and would rather sleep then help me for atleast 2 hours..... now u know y they piss me off..... anywho... im not mad at my friends, i know its not their fault they cant help me, its just..... i feel so alone, ive never really needed anyone as much as now, and no one is able to help... i dont even know that many people ... i called a total of six people (friends that atleast live in the same city as me ... other friends live out of state or overseas) ...and only 3 out of the six do i really think of as friends..... im makeing a promise to myself that this year in school and im going to get myself out there and meet new people and make new friends (not just anyone, people who will truely be a friend) so nothing like this will ever happen again.... and maybe meet a guy that will eventually be my boyfriend ... that would be nice too. hahaha :)