I'm tired of this. I'm tired of thinking we have chemistry together. I'm tired of my parents being able to see it but my friends can't. I'm tired of you wrestling with me, tickling me, asking me in that soft, gentle way if I'm okay and what's wrong with me. I'm tired of you teasing me, tired of you stealing my stuff so I'll chase you around and grab onto you. I'm tired of talking with you and feeling like we would be so perfect together. I'm tired of getting all my hopes up and feeling like you like me, when you really don't.

I'm tired of you inviting me to do everything with you and my brother, and I'm tired of when I don't play with you guys, you come and get me so I'll stay with you two. I'm tired of being sixteen and you twenty-three and feeling like you like me when I know you don't. I'm tired of liking you. Please, can you just be my brother's best-friend and ignore me so I can stop liking you? Because I am so tired of this relationship and feeling like I think about you all the time. I'm tired of getting my hopes up that you like me and that we'll be together one day and then realizing we won't and wanting to cry. I am just so tired of it all.