people always see me as the strong one.. because all the others that seem so depressed seem so easy to tell the next person about it. with some its understandable that they just wanna tell someone and it got out. but i was never proud of being upset. i never had anyone to talk to about my problems. with amber i knew i would never love another person as i loved her. i still do love her.. but no one knows that. she was my everything and she not only cheated on me in front of my eyes with one of my best friends, but dumped me for the other. i was extremly depressed. i had no one. i took hundreds of advil and a bottle of robatusin (yes it can kill you). then i had ariel. me and her hung out more and more. but there was things that bothered the shxx out of me about her. like how different she acted in front of people. i spent everyday with her, i knew. and then i remember this one time i said something stupid like "oh im so emo ill just take these pills and kill myself" because she said something.. and it was funn