I worked hard and putted my personal life aside to achieve my goals. I don’t regret anything that happened between us. But, I lost myself in the mask of what some people call themselves. You and I are not that different. We were just in different places in life with different circumstances. Before, you were the one wearing the mask; I have the mask on now, 24/7. Learn this…I never quiet ANYTHING. But, I needed to put it to rest for a moment to find myself again. Circumstances got the worse out of me and I needed to get better for the good of every one and my own. Any war is better fought with allies and my ally left me in the dark alone the battlefield without any explanations or expectations.

I never said or accused you of having everything handed to you easily. I know that you fought in some way or another to get what you got. It seems to me that you are the one that it is not aware of that. I don’t know why you are talking about the way I treat you? I just don’t get it. I was not looking for a lover and we never were as you know so well. I was so young and truly infatuated with you before you killed my innocence and purity. How can you say I never let you help me? In what planet are we living? Because as far as I know my habitat is earth. You were never there for me or offered to help me. When I was falling you never caught me, but, I am standing up again, solo, stronger.

It is very good to know that you good help for yourself, for your own problems, especially when your families and friends asked you to do it. And how many times I asked you to help yourself and solve your own issues?
The pain for my sake is not cause by me. You can run away, but never hide- The phoenix rebirth from its own aches after destruction- For my part there is not self-pity, But, an evolution of my being, my soul. I am preparing to rise above the burning town. I need to be ready; therefore, this is my hibernation stage.

You had never talk to me face to face like a like any other average Joe does. This battle is tied. Time will decide, yet know that there would not be a winner. In life, there are only students. I don’t know misery because misery is felt in the soul. And my soul is bright, enlighten, too luminous for this mundane mistaken place. And I know that you know a lot about misery and I am not afraid to say that you are mistaken this time. And you know about misery since most of those you surrounded yourself with suffer from it that is what you look for.

I need closure and my heart would not rest still I get it.