"You have no idea what I think of myself. I am more like Matt than I thought I was, at least in that I have no self confidence at all. I am petty, childish, selfish, naive, shallow, stupid, and boring. I am a bitxx, only I am too cowardly to say anything to anyone. I am also too chicken to say what I need to say to a few people, good and bad. They will probably never know, because I am leaving soon and I will never have found "the right time" to talk to any of them. I'll hate myself even more for that, I'm sure. No one ever suspects it, but I am not a good person. And I hate it." Please talk to me about your feelings. I'll listen and help. and whatever you had done please don't judge yourself to hard. We all make mistakes and it is so important to recognize them. You are in a good path. the step now is to turn around and take the path that will make you happy. The path of a better you.