"i dont like following rules or being told how to live my life. i understand people care, but that doesnt mean you get to tell me what i should and should not do. it bothers me how my friends are so dead set on thinking that i cant handle myself, that i have no idea what im getting myself into. well newsflash: i have been handling myself since 6th grade and i think ive done a damn good job at doing it on my own. and as for the other thing, i NEVER go into anything without knowing what could happen. i know exactly what could happen. i could either die or end up in jail. or get in a car accident. or slip into a coma. or overdose. or lose a ton of brain cells. hurt my family and friends. theres a whole list of shxx that could happen, but im smart enough to keep the bad outcomes to a minimum. obviously, im not in jail or dead. i havent gotten in a car accident or slipped into a coma or overdosed. sure i hurt my friends and family, but they hurt me too.
and i understand how maybe its okay until i get to a certain point..but..the thing still is is that i can handle myself. i know what im doing.if i get to that certain point i take a step back and look at my situation..seeing if i can go any farther or if i should take a break. addiction is dangerous. drugs are dangerous. but if im willing to take that risk, let me. once i get to that certain point i have the brains to ask for help. you need to realize that because telling me how to live my life is just forcing me to push you away and once i push you far enough youre one less person i have to go to when im ready to stop." Well said then I will mind my own business