i go for days without touching anyone. no hugging. no holding hands, not even any pats on the back or nudges of the elbow.. sometimes i isolate myself and don't talk to people for days. well i do talk but i'm not really communicating... i go to school everyday and i feel like i don't even exist there. i just sit in class by myself not saying anything. only when im with a few of my very close friends can i relax and open up.. then i talk and laugh and smile and i touch them you know i can just be myself around them, that's when i feel like i really exist.. the thing is though, to my friends i'm so replacable. i'm the quiet one, i'm the boring one. my friends are all confident outgoing popular people with so many friends i dont know why they even bother with me when theyve got so many better friends than i.. i see a few of them for like an hour a day in a few of my classes, and we talk and laugh and im comfortable around them, but at lunch and on the weekends they go and hang out with their other friends.. the other outgoing, happy ones.. i spend lunch time alone, i spend weekends alone. i feel like i may as well not even exist. because if my friends disappeeared from my life, i would be so alone, but if i disappeared from theirs.. theyd barely notice... because theyve got so many other better people to replace me..