Please, Love, can we or you work on getting you a counseling appointment really soon? I'll give every bit of help with that that I can offer, if you ask. It crushes so at my heart to see this sickness hurting you so. I am so honored that you want my help and that I can give you some, and it's so beautiful to see how much you help yourself. But, please, Darling Girl, let's get the rest of the resources we need in this especially hard time, before it gets even later and later. If just seeing you hurt this much causes me so much pain, I can't imagine how bad it must be for you. Your survival is amazing, but you deserve so much more happiness. You do. Visiting such pain so often is both a sign, and a cause, of such ill health for your precious heart and most beautiful mind. Please, My Baby. I Love you so.