Never stand in front of me again; On the side/behind, that's fine. I had to contain myself from pouncing on you! You're so sexy. Come see me today if you can, 1330.

ok so i turned on my ipod to go workout today and saw you were listening to my 'Rome' playlist... that is my most embarassing playlist! It is all the sappy love/relationship songs that I like. That is what I would play as background music when we are together if I could. I think I am going to set you up with some songs on my thumb drive. I don't know how long it will take me and if there are any in particular you want let me know. Miss ya!

p.s. you looked goreous today (not that you don't everyday) but today you were glowing and so...strikingly beautiful. Just thought you should know that you are beautiful. :)

I know I'm not supposed to be writing you back, if at all, but I can't help it. Sometimes i think this whole "whisper" thing wouldn't make a difference. Anyways-I think Oasis was my favorite band in 3rd grade & to actually feel the words in the song now make it pretty special. You're very sweet, in a different way than others; You really had me smiling hard while I listenened to it. And you could've come out today too. Then again, good thing you didn't. I would have seen you with your shirt off & freaked haha. I miss you alot & I'm not the only one making this hard. Muah! :)

Ok, last whisper. lol I want to know what song you put on my ipod bc it wasn't qued to anything, I guess bc the 'hold' wasn't on. I was so excited to listen to it this morning! But since it is my "last" whisper for quite awhile, I wanted to tell you that every night spent with you is great. I enjoy your company alot, & I like the way we treat this relationship. We have to keep it cool, & I know it will all pay off. I can DEAL with maybe once a week-I just hope Bahrain works out for us. You rock by the way. I hope you know that you even make me smile when I type, walk thru the p-way, or when anything reminds me of you. I will be thinking of you every day.

Hey honey. It was great to see you for a moment until I turned into a bitxx this morning haha; I'm all smiles now though after a long day of frowning-My face hurts & I never want to make that face again. Anyways, I wanted to know if it would be ok to call you tonight? I have some important things we should talk about. I miss you too. Throughout everything that happens, I just want you, & I can't have that. It really hurts. Just let me know if I can. Muah! Just imagine me not letting you leave bc I need more kisses? Mmm, that would be great!

I know; It was nice to just have a talk without kisses interrupting. I get all squirmy talking on the phone, it's cute haha. But so, I already had plans of making it to the gym today, & hopefully work doesn't cut into it. I look foward to checking you out. Ideally, we'd meet in our spot all sweaty & have a workout ourselves, but I have to stop thinking risky for a moment, or we might get in trouble :p See you later love.

Aw haha you make me smile like a goof, & I like it. I've been trying to stick around the shop all day to see if I can get a glimpse of you. The least we can do is make a gym date so I can run while you lift weights in front of me. Sounds creepy, but you look great.
But yes, I'm living in the moment with you, & I just look foward to every day if I'll see you, or get a whisper.
I love your ipod, but feel awful for keeping it for so long, you probably miss it. I wanted to steal all of your music to put on my labtop, but I may be a fool & delete it, so Nick's gonna help me out.
I kissed myself by the way-a big 'ole smooch on my shoulder while I gave myself a hug haha; It made me feel better :) You should indulge on those hershey kisses/airheads. It's the least I could give you secretly.
xoxoxo

That just made me feel awesome inside. I wanted to comment that you're being silly too haha. I understand how it goes with exes, & there was a slight consideration if somehow I would feel something; He's been here since yesterday, & I knew about it, but I just thought there was no reason for me to say, Hey guess wut, he's back. You actually walked in snap while we were talking; You have to be confident in me, that I'm not here to break your heart. Altho the last thing I wanted was a relationship, I didn't even try with you, & as hard as it is, everything just fell into place. And I have to admit that I thought I knew the feeling you get when you see someone who sparks your interest, but it's such a reality now--You literally make my knees go weak & I think I skip a breath. I don't miss Eli, & I haven't, I just felt awful for doing that to the guy since he is still a friend. I felt good when you mentioned that you got completely over it--There should be no reason to worry. I almost forgot I even dated him; You take over my thoughts & I can't help but to not think of you.
And I agree that we should lay low; People have this eye out for me & I really don't put attention to myself--Maybe I smile too much, idk, & everyone gets the wrong idea. I'm about to meet up with Nick since apparently "they're" out to get me for fratenizing more than I think. I have no worries about it. They can't prove shxx. Deb gave me a great idea since my lying skills blow, & she said that while I was talkign to you about Nick, you noticed how drunk I was & said that I'm going to get in trouble for drinking & blah blah, I won't be able to go out anymore, & I got all flustered & started crying. Bc we all know, ppl are more emotional & clouded with a million different thoughts when we drink.
And I've been hesitant when I heard you wanted to be a seal in the beginning, bc I really try to not plan that far ahead. I'm talking about the way beginning, like 1/2 hr session of "get to know you" talk. I was hesitant only bc I thought, well he wouldn't be interested in keeping a relationship while he's doing that; I never thought about myself. If you haven't noticed, what makes me happy, is making you happy. I don't have to be put on a pedestal; I just want to be appreciated for making you smile, & making you feel great all the time. You may think I'm needy bc I want to kiss you, & I have to see you, but then that just explains how good I feel when we do that. I like space, & every person needs that. I'm here for you-And there's no better thing than for me to support you. I don't like to compare things with the past, but it's been a repeated scenario where the guy has this plan, but I'm in the picture, & he gives it up, & these are big future decisions too; I think they're crazy. I never asked for that, or secretly implied it. I've always pushed them towards it. I believe that yes, you should consider the other person, but not let them interfere. You should be settled with yourself before you bring another person into the picture to make your decisions. I honestly got out of my last relationship bc of that. I do think about the future with you, but I know that we have a long, hard way to go, and it's funny how none of it scares me. The only thing that does is ppl who can't mind their own business, but we just can't let our desires take over what we know we should be doing.
P.S. Delete all emails/& be careful who's looking when u're on this site...
Sry for the long session, but I like talking to you, & if this is how we have to do it for a while, then I will. I miss you.

Hey babe-First off, I miss you. I had such a great week with you, regardless of the little fight, although I'm glad we got to clear things up. You make me really happy.
But anyways, Gibbon told me 2day that Culley & a couple other people saw us at the sandbox talking, & my punkass was crying. They also noticed Gemmato get in the middle of it. FC1 told Gibbon this just to say, hey tell her to be careful, & Bart asked me what was up. Everyone always thinks Nick & I are together since we hang out alot. I even told him about us yesterday & he said to use himself as a decoy boyfriend. So quick lie which was so hard to play off, but it could be believable that him & I are screwing around, so I just made a big lie that Nick & I got in a huge fight about his & I's relationship, and we were both so drunk, including you & I, that you & I started talking about it, me being a baby cried cause I was upset, & then Nick came & yelled at me. I wanted to fill you in on this, & i'm sry if this is a bad lie, but I'm horrible when it comes to thinking something like that off the top of my head.
Hun, i hope you get what I'm saying. I would love to meet up sometime & just talk about it briefly, but it may just be safe to let everything blow over. I really don't think this is a big deal; When I heard it, i wanted to panic, but then again, i think just bc they're in our COC that's why. I talked & hugged a few officers, & no big deal there; But then again, i must admit, we do look extremely cute together, so they probably even feel our chemistry haha. Let me know what you think.
I hope to see you soon, hopefully at the gym ;)
xoxoxox

So I saw u in the gym today & my jaw dropped. I had to find a reason to stay & chat w/Deb. U’re gorgeous.

yes we can meet but only for a little bit... 11 the usual spot

Hun, just wondering if you're free to meet tonight bc I'll be hitting the hay soon...I miss your smilin face & that's why I'm going to bed so early, so that i'll be able to wake up & finally get to talk again.

Tonight is not going to work. I have to be on watch. We have new hours now and its just not gonna work out well. Tomorrow night I will be free though. Lets plan for that. Miss ya.

Hey hun-After the MOB, I couldn't go back to sleep so I came to the shop to eat some rice krispies & had a feeling you responded. I sort of hate going the day without a big smile from you (& some kisses too!) Gem told me about his convo with Bob & overnight liberty-Good words were spoken of me, so hopefully I'm in the clear lol & we only have 1 day of duty in port. But I plan on submitting requests in his suggestion box-For some reason, I'm very optimistic it will work. I hear E-5 & above though which is too early for results :( Nick has a good way of speaking to the man, & if we couldn't get overnight, he suggested 0200. Either way, I would hope that I could spend a day with you finally, but this will be something to discuss later on. Also, I know a pretty nice gal who adores you quite a bit...She might be interested. You should take a shot.
I can't wait to lay some kisses on you. Hopefully soon!

Hey nitz, just wanted to say hello today bc it really sucks that I can't in person. Can I get a hello? haha You looked so cute today with your hair did :) I left u some autumn kisses to spare you these couple of days...I was hoping we'd meet Monday if you don't have watch, yet I have it starting at midnight? Oh I want to see you already! But I'll be breakin a sweat, then catching up on some sleep. See you around babe.

I got slightly upset, but you never fail to put a smile on my face, like when I got to see you this morning again. I hope you didn't get in trouble for being late! Thanks for staying up for me--I'm pretty tired, but I don't get tired of this. Have a good day handsome.

I can't stop replaying last nite; i could only imagine what we'd do in a bed, but then again, that requires you to grow a pair & make a move haha. JK--I adore you too much to jeopardize this relationship. I miss you even tho i just saw you, & i hope to have a secret meeting that includes soft kisses all over my body before the week is up...Have a good nite sweetheart.

I had fun swimming with you today. I wish it could have been just you and me out there. I really enjoy spending time with you. Talking last night was great. I love having you wrapped around me. I really like where things are headed with us. Miss ya babe.

Aw, you make me happy & you don't even know it.

I spoke with you for maybe a total of 20 min yesterday & it turned me into the happiest gal on the ship :) 1:30? How bout it love?

hey sorry i missed you today baby, but you got me sick. You know what that means..I won the bet. You have to make it up to me. I will see you tomorrow. Sweetdreams.

awww this made me smile and i dont even know who you people are lol

1:30 it is...seeyou then...

I hope you feel better sweetheart and I wish I could help take care of you and make you better. Let me know if I can do anything or you need anything.