I tried to reach you. But you make it so impossible. and you feel so lonely. of course you would because you don't let anyone in. I am selective with who I leave in my life not to the point that I closed myself to anything good that could make me feel better. It is just impossible to get to you as hard as I tried. and I can not go on with this hurt. It makes me weak. I am a happy person and I am feeling myself. I can not contact you. the only way that we will have any kind of interaction will be if you decide to contact me and make a effort. What is there to lose? loneliness, be my guess. I just don't know what brothers you. I don't know your circumstances. Just know this. Your circumstances are going to be there long after you and they were there long before you. In between you could only try to make it better and aim to be happy. do not go on collecting the dust. STOP TRYING TO HURT! HOW CAN YOU. STOP HURTING YOURSELF! let it go and just be.